CONVERSION EXPERIENCES
If you really want to make a Catholic squirm and sweat and doubt their religious upbringing, just corner one and rattle off this set of questions! “Are you saved? Have you been “born again?’ Have you accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior?
When I worked in the Bible Belt, down in the southern part of the state, Catholics, including myself, were often bombarded with those questions. More than one Catholic was left confused and bewildered. Their counterparts could date the precise hour they were “saved,” while Catholics stood there puzzled and confused.
Today’s feast in honor of Sts. Peter and Paul gives us a perfect opportunity to talk about these questions. Does one have to have dramatic, certain and dated experience or can one grow toward God in an extended process, sometimes without a clear beginning and end? Today we see both types of conversion experiences: Paul with his definite and certain experience of conversion at a particular moment and Peter with his long and extended process of conversion over time.
Many of our fundamentalist brothers and sisters look to the Apostle Paul as their hero and ideal. His conversion experience was dramatic and decisive. It was a shattering, clearly memorable confrontation with the person of Christ on the road to Damascus when he was on his way to hunt down Christians and kill them. After this dramatic “u-turn” in his life, he fanatically embraced and defended what he had recently persecuted and attacked. His conversion experience was so dramatic that the story is retold three times in the Acts of the Apostles and referred to three more times in various New Testament Letters. When it came to his conversion, Paul could remember the spot, the day, even the hour it happened.
Paul’s emphasis on personal-individual faith, his emphasis on dramatic decision and change, and his evangelistic zeal have become the prototype and model of Christian conversion, especially for fundamentalist groups. Many of these groups attach a certain spiritual superiority to this type of conversion, leaving many people who have not has such an experience feeling inferior and second rate.
Roman Catholics, while respecting Paul’s experience, look to the Apostle Peter as their hero and model. Peter’s experience was very different. In today’s gospel, Peter does in fact make his profession of faith, but, like many of us, it is the climax of a long and gradual insight into who Jesus is. Later in the same gospel, Peter denied that he even knew Jesus and abandoned him on the cross, only to come back later with a zeal and courage he had never experienced before.
Even though some would like to suggest that everybody has to have a definite conversion experience that can be dated, the New Testament does not suggest a single stereotype for an authentic Christian conversion experience. Nicodemus, for example, who triggered the discussion with Jesus about what it means to be “born again” is an ambiguous illustration of conversion. We do not know whether Jesus persuaded Nicodemus or not. The only thing we know for sure is that Nicodemus turned up to help out at the burial of Jesus. The fact is the New Testament balances the dramatic conversion of Paul with the gentle and more subtle changes in people like Peter, Zaccheus, Matthew, Mark, Luke, Lydia, Timothy and a whole list of saints, martyrs and converts.
Roman Catholics have often dismissed as silly emotionalism the dramatic and decisive conversions of fundamentalists, while fundamentalists have often dismissed the long and gradual conversions of other believers. But the fact is, the church has always welcomed both kinds of conversion experiences. God calls us in a variety of ways. If you have never been “knocked off your horse,” you need not feel inferior or apologetic. We all answer God’s call in our own way and in the way we are called, be it like Paul or Peter! So, it’s not one way or the other, but both and more! Conversion, turning toward God, is a mystery and the variety of conversion experiences testify to the fact that God uses a variety of ways to call his children. Peter and Paul, missionaries for the same Lord, were called in different ways and responded to their calls differently. Both are part of the same church, share the same baptism and serve the same Lord!
With
all that said, the fact remains that all of us, sooner or later must choose or
reject Jesus and the path he invites us to walk. We cannot let ourselves off
the hook simply because others, even highly placed religious leaders, have
failed to live up to that call. Jesus calls each of us by name and each of us
must respond to that invitation, no matter what others may do or not do! As
Jesus told Peter in the gospel today, regardless of what others say about him,
the question still comes to us individually, “And, you, who do you say that I
am?” And in the words of St. Paul in our second reading, “when we have competed
well in the race, when we have finished and kept the faith, God will rescue us
from every evil threat and lead us safe to his heavenly kingdom.”
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